The ears journey for clair

Today we return to doctor yoon to have Clair’s hole in her ear examined. She got this little beauty after tubes fell out and one side refused to heal. 

We’ve been coming here for 4 years. Clair loves doctors and is especially confident in knowing the routine here. 

Today we walked into the sound booth and she led the way. She jumped into the chair herself, not thinking twice about needing to sit on my lap. It was a first. 

As I commented on her newfound independence she tells the audiologist “the more work trips my mommy takes the more used to being separated from her I get” ( in a real matter of fact way)

My heart fell. 

The audiologist complimented me on raising an independent child and I still wanted to cry. 

Clair realized she had made me sad and proceeded to kiss me and tell me how much she loved me. 

I said, “ does this mean you are ready to move out on your own now one day too?”

She looks at me and shrugs,” maybe. I don’t know.”

Here’s my independent girl ready to be tested. 

I’m barely sleepy

I’m on my way to bed at 10:15 PM on a Friday night, exhausted. I took Ellie in and she tells me she’s exhausted too. I check on Max and he sound asleep. I’m going on her head before going to bed and find her wide awake still. I said girl what is wrong with you why are you not sleeping? And the giggles just start. Her response,  “I’m just not sleepy; it’s my brain; it’s very busy!”

I laughed and told her I wished I could give her some of my sleepies and take some of her energy from her. She smiled and thought it was funny but said she didn’t want my sleepies. She’s laying in there happily entertaining herself in a dark room for well over an hour with her brain.

And she’s still laughing as I leave the room telling her to try to get some sleep because I’m going to bed. That girl is something else.