We did manage to get Clair into two camps - basketball with her friend Brooklyn and the Soccer last week with Max. I’ve been trying to organize some play dates at times. I wish they had more friends in the neighborhood.
Ellie did have a friends pool party. Max and clair has a celebration for their birthdays mid June.
The Ls are back local and we have had a couple afternoons and evenings around the pool with cousins which has been really nice.
The work weeks are hard. I wish I could work less and spend more time with them. This guilt is real and will follow me around forever. Each day feels like a waste of these few years I get with my babies. They are the one thing I knew I wanted my whole life and it’s flying by. I’m really sad about that. I wish I could change it but with the lifestyle we have built I truly do not know how. I am great full for all we can give them. I hope and pray we have made decent trade offs but I sometimes wonder. I hope they feel loved and know how much I like being with them. Sometimes the stress of work is too much and I fail to demonstrate what they mean to me. Kiddos, I’m really sorry about that.
Preparing to be gone for 10 days is hard. I’ve made a schedule and they will have some time with Gramma and their cousins. David has a schedule for food and doctors. It will be fine he tells me repeatedly. I know it will be but it’s still hard to leave. Work does call and I need this trip for my team who I do care about greatly.
When I get back we are taking a family vacation road trip. This will be an adventure and they seem to be looking forward to it. So I am too!
I’m thankful for the pool. We have lots of relaxing evenings and afternoons there. It’s also a good reason to have people over. They had a friend yesterday and today we have family friends coming.
I hope they are enjoying their summer. I hope they enjoy the relaxation. The crazy fall schedule starts in one month.
