Tonight as I lay with her before she falls asleep, we talked about the anticipation of her big day. She has it all planned out. She’s told me exactly what to do for every meal. She knows when she wants to open her presents. She expect me at school with a happy meal for lunch. I am to make her French toast for breakfast. She has a special dress picked out to wear to school for the day. She’s very excited to go to school for her birthday and is anticipating the celebration her teacher will provide her as well.
She does have some hesitation about turning 6. She describes it, she wants to stay five forever and for me to stay the same age I am forever so that we can always snuggle each other the same way that we do right now. It is sweet and sad when she talks about the fact that she can’t live without me and thinks we should just die on the same day. I tried to discourage this train of thought. It is a sign that I am still her world, and I’ll be honest, I am so thankful for this time and I am her world. I know it passes quickly.
Part of me wants to admit to her that I too wish we could stay like this forever, but I know that’s not the way the world works. So I don’t encourage this train of thought and I tell her about the amazing life that lies for head for her, which I truly believe.
It’s off the bed and I have no doubt she’ll be in Bright and early for a special snuggle where she announces into my ear that it is her birthday and she is now six years old. There is no anticipation that is equivalent to that of a kid on their birthday. I love it and I love this girl so much!
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