Saying goodbye to 2020

Well, we wrapped up 2020 like we spent much of the year, together as a family but isolated from others. I love my family very much and I am grateful for all the time we’ve had together this year and that we will continue to have this time together. I’m grateful for our health. I’m grateful for the kids growth. I’m grateful for a job. I’m grateful for the many blessings we have. 

I have had three weeks off from work and it has been so wonderful and so needed. This year work became really crazy. Reporting in at a higher level and changing bosses three times meant being on call and working much harder than I have over the past few years. I hope to find some level of normalcy in 2021 but I am not sure if I will. I do not like the impact it has on my ability or lack there of to be with the children in the morning before school and to be available to help them during school. That was the best part of being off at the end of the year while they were still in school. I got to listen to them talk to their teachers and talk in group. I was so very impressed when I listen to Max. The way he takes control and volunteers in every situation at school really makes me proud of him.

I enjoyed listening to Claire gift to speeches. The first one was about herself when she was the proud peach. The second one was about our family Christmas traditions that she wanted to share with her class. She did great on both of them and I’m so glad I was able to focus on being there and helping her prepare. These are things I’m not very good at when I am working so hard and barely able to get dinner on the table, keep the laundry at bay, and figure out who needs to be where when.

Last night we had a family celebration. We had appetizers all night long. We chilled out. We played games. We watch the ball drop. We toasted it was sparkling cider. The kids had a little bit of alone time and David and I watched a comedian for a bit. Has everyone got tired towards midnight, there was bickering of course. This is another thing I need to just except as part of being a family and not let it irritate me so much. This would be another goal of mine for 2021.

This new year day was very relaxing. The boys watched movies. Ellie and I watched a new show on Netflix. The girls made cake pops. We play a family game of ticket to ride. We just relaxed and I intend for us to do that for the next two days before returning to the hustle and bustle of this crazy life we are blessed to live in.

Kids, if you ever go back and read the stories that I wrote, I hope you know that I love you. I hope you know that being your mom and raising you is truly everything that I ever look forward to in my life. I know that sometimes the days were long and Mommy sounded grumpy. I am sorry for that. I wish that every day could be sunshine and candies and all that you want. Please know that being a mom means that it’s my job to hold you accountable and prepare you to be the responsible God-fearing God loving adult that he has made you to be. I hope that with every breath I take on this life I am making strides towards that important goal.

Lots of love to you all always and forever!

Happy New Years!