Motherhood check

Today was not a great day. I have a lot of work to catch up on that is administrative and financial and doctor related. I was supposed to have Monday off to do this but spent it in the hospital with Max getting tests. That’s what a mother supposed to do and that’s fine. I’m glad I was able to be there with them. Today he came home from school sick and I decided to take him to see a new doctor. This is all time consuming and frustrating. I love my boy very much. I wish I didn’t have chores that had to be done. But being at my desk until 6:30 PM makes me an angry grumpy person. 

Fast forward to me fixing Clair a quick dinner of eggs and then her refusing to eat them again because she doesn’t like the taste of a particular type of egg we have this week. I lose it and I get super mad. I told her that she better eat those eggs or else. I told her I didn’t care if she liked them or not and if she didn’t eat them she wouldn’t have dessert for a week. She usually loves eggs and I just didn’t have the patience for it. I told her it had been a rough day and she just better eat her dinner. She was in tears. She ate her eggs and went upstairs sad to get her bath.

She gets her shower and sings in the shower and her mood improves. I do chores and busy myself with cleaning and organizing. My mood only slightly improved because at least things are cleaning up and looking a bit more tidy. So that helps my mood. But I’m still thinking I’m sending this kid straight to bed because she’s grumpy and cranky and is not eating. This has been how she’s handled her dinner the past three nights. 

She comes to the bathroom door and tells me she’s cold. I asked her how I can help. I ask if she would like me to get her clothes to wear? She says yes. I proceeded to go get her pajamas And I returned to see this. This cute little lovable creature all tucked into my bed smiling and looking adorable.

She has forgiven me already and she is happy. She is who I want to be. She is forgiving and loving and always looking to make the most of the situation.

Parenting isn’t easy, and I would not trade it for the world! I love this girl to pieces. I apologized for having a grumpy day. She read for an hour and then I cuddled her while we said prayers. I even refilled her ice water bottle for her. This girl knows how to work her mamma and things like this can be the highlight of my day at times like this. 

I love being a Mom! I want to be a better mom and person each day thanks to my kids.