Happy 7th birthday Ellie Grey

Ellie is now 7. This means I've been a mom over 7 years and honestly it's true when they (who are they anyway) that it's hard to remember life before kids. I do have memories, but it nearly feels like I was a totally different person. I think I was someone for 31 years and then the day Ellie was born I lost the old me and became who I am today. 

I would not trade it for the world. I love my kids. I love being a Mom; it is the best! Sometimes though I think my kids would have surely had more fun with the pre-mom me. I hope that's how it's supposed to be. I spend my life worrying about their safety, health, development, friends, school, care, do they know how much I love them even though I leave every day to go to work. It's a nightmare the amount if worry I carry daily. 

My prayer and hope is that at least some of this is normal and despite it, they will grow up happy, knowing God, healthy, fulfilled and part of a well connected and loving family they keep close to forever. 

Ellie is seven. She is in first grade. She has some friends. She is very smart. She is a great artist. She has athletic talent and is only interested in using it for things she likes. She can dance and she enjoys music. She is trying to teach herself to play the piano. She is a great big sister who loves Clair and Max. She still thinks I hung the moon. I'm really not sure why. I tell her that will end but she says it never will. We will see about that. I don't deserve to be seen as so perfect. 

She hates that I work and wants more then anything to win the lottery so I can stay home with her. I am sad that will never happen, as we don't even play. Actually, her version of this fantasy is that we will find the lucky pot if gold at the end of a rainbow or with a leprechaun. 

She is innocent still in her knowledge or the world, of good, and all things right. I am thankful. 

I hear seven is a great year. I believe it because they all have great moments to offer. Tonight Ellie and David put together an electric circuit and played with lights. They enjoy doing projects together. 

Ellie is one of my greatest blessings I life. I'm so happy to be her mom. Celebrating her birthday with her was really fun this year. She really anticipated it and had a vision of what it would be. And in the end  if the night, she said it was the best day ever!

Some highlights include an afternoon date with Mommy for Starbucks and ice skating, a dinner she loves with an ice cream cake she asked for, loads of presents and a new movie to watch before bed. This all meant we had A happy happy Ellie Bean!