Struggle for balance

I have spent most of my time since Clair's birth caring for her and me. Max and Ellie have been well cared for by daddy and Grannie. While I'm great full for the time with Clair and the help with Max and Ellie, I feel like I haven't been there for them the way I should. Finding the right balance isn't easy and I suspect I'll struggle for the next twenty years with kids, work, husband, and trying to do anything for me. I'm not sure how people do it. My hope is that I find a balance that doesn't damage my family and keeps me sane. This will surely require Gods lead. Hopefully Ivan follow. 

Right now Clair is in her cradle and can't seem to settle. I suspect I'll pull her into my arms again to sleep this means less then ideal sleep, but sleep at least. Here's to finding balance.