Changes

Raising children is full of changes. But so far I don't think that any phase has more changes in such a quick period of time than infancy does. Five months and one week ago I was still pregnant with Clair. Today she is no longer nursing, eating vegetables fruit and cereal, and nearly able to sit up on her own. She smiles and laughs, she rolls, she kicks with excitement and loves to be around people especially her siblings. She is a little person inside and showing us daily what she's about. 

And while I love getting to know her, and watching her grow happy and healthy, I am sad to see each phase go past. This is most severe with Clair compared to Ellie and Max because I know she is my last child. As each thing comes to an end, I am fortunately have a bit of morning that I do. I'm not sure how I'll let that go.

Now that I have started back work, but milk is drying up, and pumping is becoming harder and harder. I think it may be time to give it up. Clair hasn't nursed in about a week or two, I can't remember exactly when. But nursing is no longer okay by her because the milk just doesn't come fast enough. For five months I gave it my best effort. I doubt I will make it through the next workweek and keep this up. It's a shame, hopefully she got a good start.

Someone jokingly told me today that I should look forward to the end the celebration of the pump burning. Make me smile a little bit.